If Lex dePraxis were a TV serial, what tunes and poetic lines does each episode have?

That’s one silly question I have in mind as I lately follow thru, back to back, five of my most favorite TV serials: Prison Break, Heroes, Smallville, Californication, and Scrubs.

Well, today I have the luxury of a leisure time, and since I’m not planning to in an extensive blog entry like before, so I came up with something easy yet meaningful (at least for myself): a list of songs that always bring a certain platonic and romantic impression in my life. Songs that talk about my relationship, interaction, drama with some gentle feminine beings I have been in touch with. Each person adds a different kind of song, irreplaceable sensations, a unique warmth, and an unspoken joy. The memories will never fade. They are my best friends and lovers who I met, held hands, and grew with throughout the years. That’s why I name the soundtrack album: The Dance.

These songs are dedicated for all the relationships and amazing women in my life. These songs explain why I do what I did and why I always think each of them are all special in their own ways. Different people vibe with different song, so in case those women miraculaously find this blog and read the entry, you know who you are, dear.

So here’s The Dance. Right click and save target as to download.

01 Coldplay – Fix You
02 Hansons – I Will Come To You
03 Avril Lavigne – I’m With You
04 Clay Aiken – Right Here Waiting
05 Coldplay – Sparks
06 Evanescence – My Immortal
07 Five For Fighting – Superman
08 Clay Aiken – When I See You Smile
09 Goo Goo Dolls – Iris
10 Jewel – Time After Time
11 Lifehouse – Take Me Away
12 Maroon 5 – She Will Be Loved
13 Clay Aiken – Because You Loved Me
14 Mr Big – Baby It’s A Wild World
15 P Diddy – Every Breathe You Take
16 POD – Thinking About Forever
17 Maroon 5 – Won’t Go Home Without You
18 Robbie Williams – Better Man
19 Seal – Kiss From A Rose
20 Creed – Don’t Stop Dancing

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COLDPLAY – Fix You

When you try your best but you don’t succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can’t sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can’t replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you’re too in love to let it go
But if you never try you’ll never know
“Just what your worth”

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream, down on your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face and I…

Tears stream, down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face and I…

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.

HANSONS – I Will Come To You

When you have no light to guide you
And no one to walk to walk beside you
I will come to you
Oh I will come to you
When the night is dark and stormy
You won’t have to reach out for me
I will come to you
Oh I will come to you

Sometimes when all your dreams may have seen better days
And you don’t know how or why, but you’ve lost your way
Have no fear when your tears are fallin’
I will hear your spirit callin’
And I swear I’ll be there come what may

When you have no light to guide you
And no one to walk to walk beside you
I will come to you
Oh I will come to you
When the night is dark and stormy
You won’t have to reach out for me
I will come to you
Oh I will come to you

I will come to you

‘Cause even if we can’t be together
We’ll be friends now and forever
And I swear that I’ll be there come what may
When the night is dark and stormy
You won’t have to reach out for me
I will come to you
Oh I will come to you

We all need somebody we can turn to
Someone who’ll always understand
So if you feel that your soul is dyin’
And you need the strength to keep tryin’
I’ll reach out and take your hand

I’ll reach out and take your hand

Oh I will come to you
When you have no light to guide you
And no one to walk to walk beside you
I will come to you

Oh I will come to you
When the night is dark and stormy
You won’t have to reach out for me
I will come to you

AVRIL LAVIGNE – I’m With You

I’m standing on the bridge
I’m waiting in the dark
I thought that you’d be here by now
There’s nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I’m listening but there’s no sound

Isn’t anyone tryin’ to find me?
Won’t somebody come take me home?

It’s a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won’t you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don’t know who you are
But I… I’m with you
I’m with you

I’m looking for a place
I’m searching for a face
Is anybody here I know?
‘Cause nothing’s going right
And everything’s a mess
And no one likes to be alone

Isn’t anyone tryin’ to find me?
Won’t somebody come take me home?

Why is everything so confusing?
Maybe I’m just out of my mind
Yeah.. yeah.. yeah!..yeah.. yeah,
yeah.. yeah, yeah yeah,YEAH…
It’s a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won’t you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don’t know who you are
But I… I’m with you…

CLAY AIKEN – Right Here Waiting

Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn’t stop the pain

If I see you next to never
How can we say forever

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all the times
That I though would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can’t get near you now

Oh, can’t you see it baby
You’ve got me goin’ crazy

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if I’m with you
I’ll take the chance

Oh, can’t you see it baby
You’ve got me goin’ crazy

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

CLAY AIKEN – Because You Loved Me

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn’t speak
You were my eyes when I couldn’t see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn’t reach
You gave me faith ‘coz you believed
I’m everything I am
Because you loved me

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I’ll be forever thankful
You’re the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You’re the one who saw me through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn’t speak
You were my eyes when I couldn’t see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn’t reach
You gave me faith ‘coz you believed
I’m everything I am
Because you loved me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You’ve been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn’t speak
You were my eyes when I couldn’t see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn’t reach
You gave me faith ‘coz you believed
I’m everything I am
Because you loved me
Because you loved me

You saw the best in me
Because you loved me

CLAY AIKEN – When I See You Smile

Sometimes I wonder
If I’d ever make it through
Through this world
without having in you
I just wouldn’t have a clue

Cause sometimes it seems
Like this world’s closing in on me
And there’s no way of breaking free
And then I see you reach for me

Sometimes I wanna give up
Wanna give in
I wanna quit the fight
And then I see you baby
And everything’s alright
Everything’s alright

When I see you smile
I can face the world
Oh you know I can do anything
When I see you smile
I see a ray of light
Oh I see it shining
right through the rain
When I see you smile
Baby when I see you smile at me

Baby there’s nothing in this world that could ever do
What the touch of your handa can do
It’s like nothing that I ever knew

And when the rain is falling
I don’t feel it
Cause you’re here with me

I wanna catch you baby
It’s all Ill ever need
All I’ll ever need

Sometimes I wanna give up
I wanna give in
I wanna quit the fight
Then one look at you baby
And everything’s alright
Hey everything’s alright

COLDPLAY – Sparks

Did I drive you away?
I know what you’ll say
You’ll say, “Oh, sing one we know”
But I promise you this
I’ll always look out for you
That’s what I’ll do

And sing “oh”
I’ll sing “oh”

My heart is yours
It’s you that I hold on to
That’s what I’ll do
But I know I was wrong
And I won’t let you down
(Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah, yeah I will, yes I will…)

But I’ll sing “oh”
I cry “oh”

Yeah I saw sparks
Yeah I saw sparks
And I saw sparks
Yeah I saw sparks
Singing out

La, la, la, la, oh…
La, la, la, la, oh…
La, la, la, la, oh…
La, la, la, la, oh…

EVANESCENCE – My Immortal

I’m so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
‘Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won’t leave me alone

These wounds won’t seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There’s just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I’d wipe away all of your tears
When you’d scream I’d fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating life
Now I’m bound by the life you’ve left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

I’ve tried so hard to tell myself that you’re gone
But though you’re still with me
I’ve been alone all along

FIVE FOR FIGHTING – Superman

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
I’m just out to find
The better part of me

I’m more than a bird…I’m more than a plane
I’m more than some pretty face beside a train
It’s not easy to be me.

I wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I’ll never see

It may sound absurd…but don’t be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed…but won’t you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream
And it’s not easy to be me.

Up, up and away…away from me
Well it’s all right…You can all sleep sound tonight
I’m not crazy…or anything…

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
Men weren’t meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

I’m only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me
inside of me …… inside of me …ya inside of me… inside..of me

I’m only a man in a funny red sheet
I’m only a man looking for a dream

I’m only a man in a funny red sheet

It’s not easy … wu.. hoo.. hoo..
It’s not easy to be.. me…

GOO GOO DOLLS – Iris

And Id give up forever to touch you
cause I know that you feel me somehow
Youre the closest to heaven that ill
Ever be
And I dont want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
cause sooner or later its over
I just dont want to miss you tonight

And I dont want the world to see me
cause I dont think that theyd
Understand
When everythings made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you cant fight the tears that aint
Coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know youre alive

And I dont want the world to see me
cause I dont think that theyd
Understand
When everythings made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I dont want the world to see me
cause I dont think that theyd
Understand
When everythings made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I dont want the world to see me
cause I dont think that theyd
Understand
When everythings made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

JEWEL – Time After Time

Lying in my bed I hear the clock tick,
And think of you
Turning in circles confusion
Is nothing new
Flashback to warm nights
Almost left behind
Suitcase of memories,
Time after

Sometimes you picture me
I’m walking too far ahead
You’re calling to me, I can’t hear
What you have said
And you say go slow
I fall behind
The second hand unwinds

If you’re lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I’ll be waiting
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I’ll be waiting
Time after time
Time after time

After your picture fades and darkness has
Turned to grey
Watching through windows I’m wondering
If you’re OK
And you say go slow
I fall behind
The drum beats out of time

LIFEHOUSE – Take Me Away

this time what I want is you
there is no one else
who can take your place
this time you burn me with your eyes
you see past all the lies
you take it all away
I’ve seen it all
and it’s never enough
it keeps leaving me needing you

take me away
take me away
I’ve got nothing left to say
just take me away

I try to make my way to you
but still I feel so lost
I don’t know what else I can do
I’ve seen it all
and it’s never enough
it keeps leaving me needing you

take me away
take me away
I’ve got nothing left to say
just take me away

don’t give up on me yet
don’t forget who I am
I know I’m not there yet
but don’t let
me stay here alone

this time what I want is you
there is no one else
who can take your place
I’ve seen enough and it’s never enough
it keeps leaving me needing you

take me away
take me away
I’ve got nothing left to say
just take me away

take me away
take me away
I’ve got nothing left to say
just take me away

MAROON 5 – She Will Be Loved

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I’ve had you so many times but somehow
I want more

I don’t mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn’t matter anymore

It’s not always rainbows and butterflies
It’s compromise that moves us along, yeah
My heart is full and my door’s always open
You can come anytime you want

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful

MAROON 5 – Won’t Go Home Without You

I asked her to stay
But she wouldn’t listen
She left before I had the chance to say (Oh-oh)
The words that would mend
The things that were broken
But now it’s far too late, she’s gone away

Every night she cried herslef to sleep
Thinking: “Why does this happen to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?”
Hard to believe it

It’s not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make you right
I may not make it through the night
I won’t go home without you

The taste of her breath, I’ll never get over
The noises that she made kept me awake (Oh)
The weight of the things that remained unspoken
Built up so much it crushed us everyday

Every night you she cried herself to sleep
Thinking: “Why does this happen to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?”
Hard to believe it

It’s not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make you right
I may not make it through the night
I won’t go home without you (Oh-oh-oh-oh)

It’s not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make you right
I may not make it through the night
I won’t go home without you (Oh-oh-oh-oh)

Of all the things I felt but never really showed
Perhaps the worst is that I ever let you go
I should not ever let you go (oh-oh-oh)

It’s not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make you right
I may not make it through the night
I won’t go home without you (oh-oh-oh-oh)

It’s not over tonight
Just give me one chance to make you right
I may not make it through the night
I won’t go home without you
And I won’t go home without you
And I won’t go home without you
I won’t go home without you

MR BIG – Baby It’s A Wild World

Now that I’ve lost everything to you,
You say you want to start something new,
And it’s breaking my heart you’re leaving,
Baby, I’m grieving.

But if you want to leave, take good care,
Hope you have a lot of nice things to wear,
But then a lot of nice things turn bad out there.

Oh, baby, baby, it’s a wild world,
It’s hard to get by just upon a smile,
Oh, baby, baby, it’s a wild world,
I always remember you like a child, girl.

You know I’ve seen a lot of what the world can do,
And it’s breaking my heart in two,
’cause I never want to see you sad, girl,
Don’t be a bad girl.

But if you want to leave, take good care,
Hope you make a lot of nice friends out there,
But just remember there’s a lot of bad and beware.

Well, oh baby, baby it’s a wild world,
It’s hard to get by just upon a smile,
Oh baby, baby it’s a wild world,
And I always remember you like a child, girl.

Baby, I love you,
And if you want to leave, take good care,
Hope you make a lot of nice friends out there,
Just remember there’s a lot of bad and beware.

Oh, baby, baby, it’s a wild world,
It’s hard to get by just upon a smile,
Yeah, yeah, yeah,
Oh, baby, baby it’s a wild world,
And I always remember you like a child girl,
Oh, yeah,
Oh, baby, baby it’s a wild world,
It’s hard to get by just upon a smile,
Yeah, yeah, yeah,
Oh baby, baby it’s a wild world,
And I always remember you like a child, girl

P DIDDY – Every Breathe You Take

Seems like yesterday we used to rock the show
I laced the track, you locked the flow
So far from hangin on the block for dough
Notorious, they got to know that
Life ain’t always what it seem to be (uh-uh)
Words can’t express what you mean to me
Even though you’re gone, we still a team
Through your family, I’ll fulfill your dream (that’s right)
In the future, can’t wait to see
If you open up the gates for me
Reminisce some time, the night they took my friend (uh-huh)
Try to black it out, but it plays again
When it’s real, feelings hard to conceal
Can’t imagine all the pain I feel
Give anything to hear half your breath (half your breath)
I know you still living your life, after death

Every step I take, every move I make
Every single day, every time I pray
I’ll be missing you
Thinkin of the day, when you went away
What a life to take, what a bond to break
I’ll be missing you

It’s kinda hard with you not around (yeah)
Know you in heaven smilin down (eheh)
Watchin us while we pray for you
Every day we pray for you
Til the day we meet again
In my heart is where I’ll keep you friend
Memories give me the strength I need (uh-huh) to proceed
Strength I need to believe
My thoughts Big I just can’t define (can’t define)
Wish I could turn back the hands of time
Us in the 6, shop for new clothes and kicks
You and me taking flicks
Makin hits, stages they receive you on
I still can’t believe you’re gone (can’t believe you’re gone)
Give anything to hear half your breath (half your breath)
I know you still living you’re life, after death

POD – Thinking About Forever

Time goes by and God knows I try to carry on with life
Decide not to hide feelings inside, even though they hurt
Sometimes, I forget to remember you
It’s easy to lock away the pains, don’t want to relive it through
But I stay strong, you taught me how to move on in this world
I married my sweetheart, even got a little baby girl
I wish you could see her, I swear she looks just like you
If you can hear me, show me a sign, please send her a butterfly or two

I’m thinking about forever (missing you)
I know you’re so much better (we made it through)

Now I know what it means to live for someone else
To give up yourself
Things have changed, at times it gets kind of strange
Your love remains the same
Do I make you proud? Mama, can you see me now?
Whatever is good in me is because you showed me how to take love by the hand
And so now I can share you with my baby
So that she can understand

I’m thinking about forever (missing you)
I know you’re so much better (we made it through)
I’m thinking about forever (missing you)
I’m tripping on whatever (hearing you)

ROBBIE WILLIAMS – Better Man

Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain

Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I’m getting old
Before my time

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow old through this pain
Lord I’m doing all I can
To be a better man

Go easy on my conscience
‘Cause it’s not my fault
I know I’ve been taught
To take the blame

Rest assured my angels
Will catch my tears
Walk me out of here
I’m in pain

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow old through this pain
Lord I’m doing all I can
To be a better man

Once you’ve found that lover
You’re homeward bound
Love is all around
Love is all around

I know some have fallen
On stony ground
But Love is all around

Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain

Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I’m getting old
Before my time

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow old through this pain
Lord I’m doin’ all I can
To be a better man

SEAL – Kiss From A Rose

There used to be a graying tower alone on the sea.
You became the light on the dark side of me.
Love remained a drug that’s the high and not the pill.
But did you know,
That when it snows,
My eyes become large and
The light that you shine can be seen.

Baby, I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the grave.
Ooh, The more I get of you, the stranger it feels, yeah.
And now that your rose is in bloom.
A light hits the gloom on the grave.

There is so much a man can tell you,
So much he can say.
You remain,
My power, my pleasure, my pain, baby
To me you’re like a growing addiction that I can’t deny.
Won’t you tell me is that healthy, baby?

CREED – Don’t Stop Dancing

At times life is wicked and I just can’t see the light
A silver lining sometimes isn’t enough
To make some wrongs seem right
Whatever life brings
I’ve been through everything
And now I’m on my knees again

But I know I must go on
Although I hurt I must be strong
Because inside I know that many feel this way

Children don’t stop dancing
Believe you can fly
Away… away…

At times life’s unfair and you know it’s plain to see
Hey God I know I’m just a dot in this world
Have you forgot about me?
Whatever life brings
I’ve been through everything
And now I’m on my knees again

But I know I must go on
Although I hurt I must be strong
Because inside I know that many feel this way

Am I hiding in the shadows?
Forget the pain and forget the sorrows

But I know I must go on
Although I hurt I must be strong
Because inside I know that many feel this way

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The album, The Dance, provides you the window to see, hear, and touch the world of Lex dePraxis.Those are the soundtracks of my life. I even have already reminded my close friends to use the last song, Don’t Stop Dancing, in the last episode of my mortal life in this world.The list above mainly focuses on the romance side of a TV serial.

Perhaps, someday I’ll continue with the soundtracks for scifi and action serial.

What about you? What are the soundtracks of your life?