I wrote this on the second day of the 23rd year of my life. I thought that my 23rd birthday wouldn’t be complete If I didn’t write this. Maybe this note will show you a lil bit of my mellow side, please bear with me.

I live in this crazy era with a crazy brain, ever since I was born. I was a low self-esteemed, lossy person. My friends bullied me back then. I was a loser. And I just realized that I am 23 years old now and I’m still alive and kickin, it makes me think that I have something and I want to thank for it

Maybe this is the first time any of you reading about me saying thanks to Something or Someone up there, who gives me a lot of blessings or even the smallest luck that I never realize, thank you..

Thanks to my parents that, even when they were having a hard time, they always tried to give me the best they could, to teach me about the world. Thanks to my dad who always works hard for me and my family, even when he is old enough to say, “I want to retire”. Thanks to my mom who always encourages me with her endless love. Dad and Mom I will keep my oath to make you happy and proud that I AM YOUR SON! Please wait a little bit longer for me.. I’ m on my way. Yes.. I’m on my way! Thank you!

For my older sister, I know that you have a lot of pressures from mom because you are the oldest one. But don’t take it personally, sis. You can share it with me. I know that you always try to protect me and lil sis. But now we are old enough to handle anything. So you can share it to me. Thanks for holding it for so long, and I’m sorry for my childish behaviour back then. Thank you!

For my younger sister, hi sis. You are the cutest little sister anyone can have, it makes me want to protect you forever! Thanks for protecting me in front of Dad and Mom back then, when I still wanted to just go out and play, thanks for your effort. Thank you!

And for my twin brother, who has been lying sick at home since he was a cute baby, I know you can’t read this letter but I know you can feel it. Thanks bro for giving your life and freedom to me. For giving all your powers to me. For giving the happiness. For giving me the chance to live in this world while you are lying down so sick. Please don’t go just yet, I’ll take care of you. Thanks for all the support and the warmest energy you send me every day. Thank you bro, I won’t let you down. Thank you!

When I was in my high school, thanks to my friends Thamrin, Sandy, Karina, Fidelia, Anggita, Pocink, Swarlex, Mulyana, and my warmest (Becex’s) basketball team: Romy, Nico, Santo, Fen-Fen, Man Man, 0%, Didi, E-joe and of course Romy’s mother and father. And another Becex’s member that I’ve forgotten (I’m really sorry bout this) that had taught me a lot of things, encouraged me when I down, felt rejected and a don’t-know-anything boy. Thanks mates, you guys really mean a lot to me. You had taught me how to play basketball, taught me about friendship, cared for me when I was down and wanted to kill myself. I don’t know how to repay you guys, I am not far from you guys. I will go and search for something that, maybe, one day I can share it with u guys. Please wait for me to come back, hug you all, and say, “thanks a lot”. Thank you!

And to Fidelia Paramitha, the girl whom I had liked for 3 long years.. She was the one who gave me the challenge to become better academically. Thank you!

When I was on the first 2 years in my university, still thanks to Romy, Nico, Comenk, Pus, Ivan, Steve, Sendy, Elizabeth, Ike, Elvy, Dewi, and Vivi, that had put up with my nonsense. You guys really inspired me. Hendry (Enchet) that taught me a lot of things which is worth more than anything I can afford in this world. You guys are really meaningful for me, that had helped me a lot, made me learn something new that I couldn’t even imagine before. The knowledge you guys gave to me is very useful up until now. Thank you!
And when I stepped into the last of my 2nd year in my university, I met someone called David (Ice) that told me a lot of things about Hitman System. Every second of our conversation is my treasure up until now. You’re the man that exploded my brain and made me start my journey. Thank you!

And when I learned about Hitman System, I found these 3 EXTRAORDINARY men that CHANGED my life completely. Gave me something that I had been searching for, to change my life. Something that I always needed, so now I can repay my friend whenever they need it too. You guys really awesome.

Lex with his knowledge, fatherness, and softness, protects me and teaches me about what happens to me, about everything that I need to change.

Kei with his calmness, and frontal, make me want to kill myself, and create a new me, so I can fulfill my duty as a Human, Son, Friend and A MAN.

Jet with his humorous conversations that melt the ice, and magic that he shows me. The man that show me his limitless spirit.

I can’t even describe what I felt that day. You guys are really something to me. Thank you!

And when I started to walk on my new path, I will never forget my friends who walked beside me: Eder, Max, Leon, Cygnus, and Kis, who always support me. Time runs so fast, it makes me unable to remember everything that happened. But you guys CARVED something in my heart. Thank you!

And when I tried to get my first job, still David (Ice) introduced me to Starbucks where I met Melissa, cute but rarely smile (and yeah her smile is beautiful..), Agnes whom I think of as my older sister, Hendry the open-minded man that felt like my older brother, and Dewi who was just like my mom there. Fitri, I’ve always liked it when you smile, thanks for the knowledge that you shared with me so I can learn how to become a good barista. Beby, the small, cute girl with unique name. And the other baristas that I can’t write all the names here. Thank you guys for giving me a chance to know you guys, to learn what you guys have, and for teaching me and treating me like your small brother. Thank you!

And when Kis and Gate introduce me to their friends: Yadi, Pradit, Yudhis, Jenneh, Denny, KC, Bom-Bom, Owen, Onel, Chingkun, Jackson, Setiadi, Juniati, Irene, Acin, Bakom, and Tessa. You guys always brighten my day whenever we meet, even in my hardest times. Thanks for always being there for me. I know that most of the times I am stubborn, arrogant, and yeah.. playful, you guys are still there for me. And you guys have taught me a lot about other people’s condition. Thank you guys, for always being there for me. Thank you!
And when I hang out with Yuki and Kis..

Thanks a lot, my older brother, for your time accompanying me when I came to your house crying and feeling down. You always support me. ALWAYS DUDE. Always. Keep telling and reminding me that I am still an immature boy, and I need to learn more. You really try to cheer me up whenever I feel rejected by the whole world, when I go crazy, when I become F**kin retarded. For those great chats before we go to sleep, for the adventures together, for the laughters that we laugh together. Those mean a lot to me. You are the best big brother that I ever have, bro. Love you, bro. Really. Thank you!

Thanks a lot, my younger brother, for reminding me to keep in track when I go too far away. I learn a lot from you. And I am sorry if I always try to tell you about what could happen in your life, that’s only because I want you to become success. I want you to become someone that the world will acknowledge. The knowledges that we’ve gained together, the adventures that we’ve had and will have, all the laughs and the cries through our brotherhood will stay, man. STAY. Thank you Kis..Thank you!

And when Jet, Kei, Lex and Cygnus asked me to become Hitman System instructor together with Kis and Yuki, that really fired me up. You guys gave me the chance to share my passions, the only guys that let me know that we can live to HELP OTHERS, to make a change in this world.

Lex tells me a lot of things, more than I can ask for. You are a friend, a father, a role-model that is perfect for me. I learned a lot from you. I adore you, man, for being so caring to a lot of people. The spirit you have on helping people is very strong that no one can imagine what you would sacrifice for it.

Kei, man, you’re the man with warmest hug, and the best friend for us. You never take our problems easy, you always try to understand us. Stay there for us. Please sacrifice your precious time to hear what we complain, man you are.. the living symbol of patience.

Jet when every time you come to our house it feels that the house fills with your laughters, your spirit and I want to hang out with you even more.

Big Brothers, maybe this is selfish but I want to say: please think about your life guys. You guys always try to save others while sacrificing too much for it. But somehow, I was one of the thousands of people that you guys have saved. You guys always say that I am an anomaly, but in my eyes, you guys ARE THE ANOMALY. Thanks. I’m in your debt. I’M IN YOUR DEBT, MEN. BIG DEBT. I still want to write a lot about you guys. But you know I can’t write a lot ..Hehehe.Thank you. Thank you!

And then my friend who’ve stayed with me when we have the same problems: Zen and Dexter.
Zen, other people always say that I’m energetic, but when I hear you share a story I know you are way more energetic than me. The pain, philosophy, laughters, and craziness, that we share together, they will always be in my life. Always, man.. Thank you!

Dexter, remembering all the madness that we’ve done together, all the talks, all the beers, all the f*ckin parties, all the sharings, I want to say thanks. Maybe I’ve told you something hard, with high pitched voice, but all I want is you to become stronger. I know you have the same dream as me. We want to make our parents proud that they have us. So be it, bro.. Thanks, man. Thank you!

Thanks to Firmansyah, Iget, Suci, Kelik, Bambang, Lia, Anto, Yadi, Ujang for always supporting me at the office. The smiles, the memories, the happiness, the craziness, the support, and all the knowledge that you’ve given me will always be within me.Thank you.. Thank you!

To my warmest brother, Eder (Volt).. Man, you really have helped me a lot. You teach me a lot. You always tell other people that I inspire you, but NO, man.. You are the one that inspire me with your stories. The day you asked me to join you at the party, you promised to protect me. Thanks man, even now you still help and encourage me a lot. All the talk and support from you will never leave me.Thank you, man. Thank you!

To TPB (Galyn, Lambs, White, Green, and Diesel) thanks for always giving me a tour whenever I’m in Bandung. You guys are the warmest group that I’ve ever been in. For Green, you are the cute yet poetic friend that always gives me a shock, smile and laughter together. Thanks for all the adventures, the sharings that you guys have given up until now. Thank you. Thank you!

To my Guardians, Prasetya and Funiati, I want to make both of you proud that you have me in your team. Thanks for keeping me in track. Thanks for sharing your knowledge with me. Thanks for your encouragement, thanks for you kindness, thanks for treating me as your own child. Thank you!

And of course, thanks to myself for all the blood and tears shed along this winding road. Thanks for the undying energy burning within, it’s time to raise up the standards! Thank you, me!

And for my ex-girlfriends..

Visia: Thanks for all the memories that you gave me as my 1st girlfriend. Thanks for the good and bad that happened between us. Hope that you’re happy. Thank you, Sia..

Rani Secti : Thanks beb, for the memories, the support, the cute smile, all the hugs and kisses from you that gave me happiness. Thank you for the sweet moments that we had together. Thank you, Ran..

Angel : Thanks Blu, for letting me feel your warm family, the smile from you, all the wake up calls, the understanding and attention, and all the efforts. You are a really cute girl. I know it was my fault and my immaturity for taking our relationship for granted. I’m sorry.. and thank you for all the laughters, the romantic and cute memories that we had together. Thank you, Blu..

And for all the girls that have come into my life, gals.. all of you gave me a lot of new things to learn. The adventures, memories, smile, and sharings will always be by my side.

Piper (big Sister), Patricia, Natalia, Gladis, Vivi Octavia, Metha, Vey, Noni, Quincy, Inoy, Dewi, Fetty, Yumi, Tiffany, Nina, Imelda Wu, Gene, Yenny, Vivi, Thirza, Felice and the others (I’m sorry I can’t recall all the names in this mellow condition).. Thank you!

And for my fellow students and brothers. I hope you guys will become stronger and stronger. We can become someone in this world. Face up the world and fight. We will be with you, brothers..
Thanks to all the friends that I haven’t mentioned. Each one of you has given a lot of things that are very precious to me.

And for all of these things, I can say that I am VERY LUCKY to have you guys in my life. Thanks.. Thanks.. Thanks for all the memories,the sweetness, the knowledge, the times. Everything you guys have given me..
Thank you guys.. Thank you!

And in the 23rd year of my life, I will keep walking with all the gifts from you guys. And I WILL SURVIVE. I AM PROUD THAT I HAVE YOU GUYS AS MY FRIENDS. And now it’s my turn to make you guys PROUD that you have me as your friend.

Mellow to the max!
Sins Aeschylus